Hiya Mate. What I mean is that he has the sense that he is out of place, almost like some kind of entity has gotten him there. I suppose Sadhana practice is the invocation of certain entities. Sometimes they are benevolent, sometimes not much.

That’s what I mean by the occult. It’s like tantric practice but without the altruistic intention but with an intention to control instead. I’m not saying that’s what is happening. Just feels a bit that way to me.

You know I had a massive dose of magic mushrooms once and I became one with the universe and travelled all the way back and forth throughout history. It was definitely a spiritual awakening. Then I came down and forgot about it. All I was left with was a sense of feeling quite broken for many months after. I’m not a fan of spontaneous enlightenment stories lol. Anyway, it’s a good read. I like your style.